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Fear of death

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Sep. 8th, 2006 | 05:40 pm
mood: free
music: Mei Sin's guitar practice

Recently I've been playing and singing some Muse songs, and I started thinking about the lyrics in one of them, called "Thoughts of a Dying Athiest". They go

and I know the moment's near
and there's nothing you can do
look through a faithless eye
are you afraid to die?

it scares the hell out of me
and the end is all I can see
and it scares the hell out of me
and the end is all I can see

And I started thinking about the nature of our fear of death, and how we can interpret that fear. I thought "Our fear of death is a mechanism to keep us alive. It exists because the people who didn't fear death all died quickly, and never reproduced. It has no meaning beyond that."

And what that means to me is that death is really not something to fear. The fear itself is something mechanical. But on the other side, there is nothing bad, nothing evil. Death is death, and that's all it is.

And then I saw that feeling extend to my other fears as well. My fear of looking bad to other people. My fear of doing something "bad". All of it is a mechanism that evolved to keep us alive and teach us to survive. Beyond that, it has no meaning or purpose. And when we apply it to the absurd situations we apply it to in everyday life, like being afraid that someone will think we are not good enough, it become ridiculous :)

These thoughts also had a seed in something I saw last night, where a child was crying and acting up (struggling and throwing tantrums). The child reminded me so much of Gisele. And of every other child I have ever seen. All of us are run by the same mechanisms, that take us over with anger, fear, love, hate, and every other feeling that takes us over at one time or another. The mechanisms have no meaning in themselves, they are just part of being human. They're not right or wrong in any universal sense, although we can interpret them as right or wrong.

I feel free :)

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