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Arrogance, sharing

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Jul. 11th, 2006 | 03:05 pm
mood: introspective
music: Tool - 10,000 days

I just realized something.. when I'm scared, I act arrogant. I pretend that everything is fine, and act as if it's unthinkable that anything could be wrong. And that's why I feel that I can't share my secrets. Because I will be arrogant about it, like I am telling someone what to do.

I realized that while reading through postsecret. I read a secret saying "I am never going to forgive you", and thought "That is so arrogant!". Then I saw that same arrogance in myself. Makes me think of Hannibal as well. Clarice says "You see a lot don't you doctor. Why don't you turn that high-powered perception at yourself and tell us what you see, or, maybe you're afraid to."

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scared leads to arrogant

from: anonymous
date: Jul. 12th, 2006 09:29 pm (UTC)

From experience gleaned as a teacher, I'd say scared leading to arrogance is one of the least nasty outcomes.

Scared often leads to angry, belligerant, pugnacious. A lot of telliing lies and justifying and "explaining".

And scared can lead to frozen, rabbit in the headlight behaviour, which in turn leads to loss of self esteem.

Is what you describe as arrogance something like the "whenever I feel afraid, I whistle a happy tune"? If I can manage it I certainly act in control until the real control comes (if it ever does). Fear is so paralyzing that without this mechanism I am frozen with racing heart etc.


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